SAM FUCKING WINCHESTER
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT SAM MOTHERFUCKING WINCHESTER
Sam never had it easy. He was born into horrific circumstances. His entire life was doomed from his birth - when he was only 6 months old, his mother was violently killed and his father became obsessed, bordering on mentally unstable. He was moved around constantly, lacked any kind of stability and had very few positive influences in his life. Despite being brought up in horrific circumstances, he turned out pretty damn well and, largely thanks to a wonderful big brother, ended up a fairly balanced individual, all things considered.
Sam is intelligent. He is crazy intelligent! He never had any decent schooling - he was moved around, uprooted from any stable working environment, and never attended one singular school for more than a few weeks at a time. Despite this, he not only finished High School, but presented such damned good work that he was offered a full-ride scholarship to Stanford University, and got an amazing score on his S.A.T.
Sam loves and depends on his brother. Honestly, anyone who questions this is just plain stupid. Sam continually not only verbally tells Dean over and over again that he cares for him, that he would do anything for him, that he is his brother and his whole world, but he also continues to show this. He was completely broken when Dean went to hell, and though he hasn’t always seen eye-to-eye with his brother, he has forgiven him time and time again for really, really, really shady shit.
Sam has had it so hard, seriously. So he not only survives an emotionally abusive childhood, but he finally gets out of that life and gets out of hunting and finally gets what he wants - he’s a normal person again, and he feels whole. Sam does something for himself, doing what he must, what’s best for him, and his girlfriend ends up dead. She burns on the ceiling just like his mom did. Now he thinks he’s cursed - everyone he loves, all the women he gets close to die. It happens with Sarah, it happens with Madison, it happens with Ruby… if life teaches him one thing, it’s that he cannot ever get close to anyone, because doing so puts them in danger.
Sam tries his damn hardest to do what’s right, and it always goes to shit. Seriously, every major decision Sam has ever made has been because he honestly think it’s the right thing to do. Drinking demon blood was him trying to make the best of a terrible situation and doing what he could to get Dean out of hell, and kill the leader of the demons. Him saying yes to Lucifer and nearly destroying the world? He was doing the only thing he could see to do - trying to take Lucifer on from the inside.
Sam’s entire life was a lie. Again with the suffering and man-pain and terrible thing that has been Sam’s life. Seriously, his entire life was toyed with even before he was born! Heaven had a plan, their vessels all neatly gift-wrapped for them. Mary was dragged into it before Sam was even conceived, and from the get-go his life was continually manipulated by demons. He was fed demon-blood when he was just 6 months old, and continually throughout his life, demons were placed, posing as friends and the like, to push him in the right direction - towards Lucifer. He never stood a chance at a normal life. He was never going to get a happy ending.
Sam saved the whole damn world. Sam overcame motherfucking Lucifer, an archangel, simply because he could see his brother and didn’t want to see him hurt; he was reminded of how much he loved Dean, and jumped into the cage without a second thought, knowing full-well that he was probably going to be there, being tortured for eternity.
Sam is flawed. Everyone is aware of Dean’s non-existent self-worth and his trust issues, but few seem to be aware of how much Sam has similar issues too. Sam’s entire self-worth is based on what Dean thinks of him, and he really doesn’t see that he is worth saving. He still thinks that he’s impure and can hardly bear to say aloud that he has demon blood in him. He thinks he is nothing but a let-down to Dean, and Dean’s inability to trust him is the one thing that can hurt him more than anything else. Sam is also often stubborn, and he refuses to acknowledge Dean’s side of things. He’s sometimes too self-sacrificing, and he thinks he must somehow deserve all of the suffering he encounters, simply because he is a human who makes mistakes.
Sam is understanding and thoughtful. He thinks before he speaks, and he often considers things from other people’s perspective. He realises that many of the monsters they may encounter are innocent, and he is firmly of the belief that what you are means nothing, it is what you do that determines what kind of person you are. The whole reason he preferred to exorcise people with his mind was because that way the victim being possessed survived - he thought about the people they were actually trying to save. He empathises with those who are suffering, no matter what they’ve done, and often talks people down as an alternative to hurting them (eg. the woman who didn’t realise she was a ghost, Sam was incredibly kind to, and let her down easy with the revelation. The kid with telekinesis who was killing his abusers - Sam talked him down, he empathised with him and tried to reason… the list goes on.)
Sam tries to make the best of a bad situation. Every damn time. Seriously, this guy was poisoned with demon blood shortly after birth, and has felt impure and unworthy ever since. He had visions of the future and used it to prevent people’s deaths. And he took this dark and evil thing that was inside of him, and tried his damned hardest to make something good out of it. He tried to use himself, what was supposed to be a weapon for the opposing side, and use it to help people, to save people.
Sam is a selfless motherfucker. Seriously this man’s response to having a mental breakdown and being relentlessly, mentally tortured is ‘others have it worse’. Even after everything he’s been through, he continually pushes through, does his best to make good of a bad situation, and says that others have it worse so he can’t really complain. He’s okay. He’s always okay. He told Dean that when he went to hell, there were to be no deals, no take-backs, no nothing. And while Dean may secretly want to be saved because he needs that validation, Sam really means it. He was angry when he got his soul back and realised Dean had done something to get him out. He doesn’t want anyone else being put at risk on account of him, and he wants Dean to be happy and get on with his life, without the burden of a brother to protect.
I am really inarticulate, and terrible at explaining why Sam is so fucking amazing, but basically yeah, Sam Winchester is the most selfless, kind, thoughtful, loving, beautiful and morally motivated and fucking incredible person I’ve ever had the pleasure to encounter.